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Many “Entrepreneurs” might kill me after reading this article 🙂

So many a times I have this discussion from fellow Entrepreneurs who are working hard to build their dream company.  When asked that why they preferred to be an Entrepreneur, rather than choosing a regular worldly path of good career. More often or not they answer with “I won’t have any boss to order me”. I think they misinterpreted the general philosophy of whole Entrepreneurship.

What elders said is “You need to be your own boss”. That means technically you have a boss, and you are the one who should be bossing around to yourself. What is a Boss anyway ? A boss is someone who scold you if you miss any deadline or not able to deliver quality. A boss is someone who give you real tough time after 5PM if a project delivery is on your head even if you might be waiting to meet your dearest wife. At the same time, a boss is also someone who praises you at occasions when you actually have done a good job and make you feel proud on yourself.  He gives you direction when you are confused. That ain’t sound like a bad boss. In fact, I don’t disagree with the whole concept of having a boss hovering over your head.

A good friend of mine once said “A boss is someone who brings the real out of you.” Do you think you can replace that guy with yourself ? Can you scold yourself when you missed any personal commitment ?  Can you make yourself sit in office or your work place for hours to honor commitment to yourself ? If yes, than yes, you can be your own boss.  But true again, you need a boss. Be it you or some one else to make you productive.



By the way I am 24. When I see my life when I used to 10, I don’t remember what I did on any particular wednesday, although I remember macroscopic events, my  feelings from macroscopic view.  I see a summary of life. Well, I used to be a happy kid who was afraid of his teachers because they would punish him for not doing his home work.  I also try to remember, exactly how I used to think ? How I used to take life ? How exactly I used to perceive people, family etc. And when I think about it, I see a lot’s of areas where I could have improved my self.

I wish I had a little more confidence and a little more understanding of things, I could have done something better in life.  So the real question is, am I going to spend my remaining days like this only ?

Where after every couple of years, or decade may be, I will look back and think I could have done this or that. Well, I guess not. The idea situation would be, where I look back and see that I did my best. Isn’t it ?

So that’s where this perspective become useful. Trust me, it’s amazing.

How ?

First, you might be struggling with lot’s of problem. When you look from this perspective, these problem will not look more than a college assignment to you. The “worry” will go away and confidence will come in.

Second, relationship, you might not be giving sufficient time or space to some one they deserve, now look back. I guess I don’t need to explain that.

Third, taking initiatives, very often we do not take some initiatives thinking we are not good enough for that. Even thought deep down we believe we really should do that. I really don’t want 34 year old me yelling at 24 year old me, asking why didn’t I do some particular thing. Well, you will take the initiative. We are all answerable to ourselves 10 years later.

What is “becoming” anyway.

Can I “become” a bird ? As hindu mythologists say you do. If you do some X set of things, you will be born as bird. So is it action, which make us “become”.

I was stupid, I “became” smarter after I had X experience. So is it learning that make us “become”. Or is it like action that brings learning eventually, and make us “become” Y.

So do I keep doing action and wait for the learning to come in ?

Or I just wait “action” to take place eventually ?

An easy would be to make myself fall into a scenarios where some certain set of actions has to be taken by oneself, and consequently certain set of learning has to be grasped and person “become” something.

I take a jump into a pond, would it possible to “learn” swimming ? I guess yes, If I manage to survive. What If I die ? Will I get some part of learning in my next life ? I need to jump in couple of lives, to be born as a perfect swimmer. If I had been smart enough, I would have learnt in my first life.

Even if there is a generic and constant learning associated with an action, all I can grasp is a form of this. An interpretetion. I need to have a certain intellect to get the real learning out of it. Or is the concept of “real” learning is falsified itself ? It depends on one’s perception toward the learning. There is no such thing as “real”. All is perception.


पंख पखेरू तू लगा, ए पंछी तु उड चला
ख्वाबों के बादल तू छूने
धरातल को कर तु अलवीदा
ऐ पंछी तु उड चला!!!

भूल चला अपनी क्षमता तू
भूल चला अपना वजूद
पकडने चला तु बादल को
पंख पखेरू तू लगा, ऐ पंछी तु उड चला!!!

आत्मविश्वास की ज्वाला में,
तु यर्थाथ का संगम छोड चला
स्वपनलोक के मोह से तु
धरातल अपना छोड चला
पंख पखेरू तू लगा, ऐ पंछी तु उड चला!!!

संध्या की कालीमा छा चुकी
देर हुई अंधेर नहीं,
लौट चला आ अपने घर
उड तू लेकिन अपने स्तर
पंख पखेरू तू लगा, ऐ पंछी तु उड चला!!!

Hello People,

I never thought I would reveal this in public like this. Yesterday, this asteroid swooped past the earth, while it was passing, few of its piece broke and fell on earth. A very tiny such piece fell on my head while I was walking. First I thought some street kid is trying mess around with me, but when I looked down I saw a shining piece of metal which almost blinded me. I hesitated to pick it up, you wouldn’t believe, it was as light as air and as bright as full moon in the night. It was soft like cotton. I could not believe my eyes but I brought it home anyways.

I put this in the cup board at my work desk. I usually work late at night and yesterday was no different. Around mid night what I see was unbelievable to my eyes. That piece was lifted a bit from its bottom and was hanging in air. It was slowly rotating on its axis. It was mid night so I didn’t deny the possibility of me dreaming. I took it out from the jar and took a closer deep look. The stone wasn’t solid. Yup, when I took a closer look it was like condensed fumes. I was bit scared but excited at the same time. I put that back in the jar and started working.

In the morning I had hell lots of pending work to finish, many meetings to attend and an urgent client assignment to deliver; so my mind had no space to think about any extra terrestrial object which almost broke my head ( Surprisingly, it didn’t hurt when it hit me. ) In the evening when I sit on my regular chair in the regular room, I realized I had no regular day today. My mind was working excellently. My meeting went well, assignment got delivered, pending tasks got finished and above all I called many of my old friends to see how they were doing. All this in a single day, was like a dream for me.

And then I looked at that jar and the rotating stone inside it. It had changed in color. It had got some reddish tinch on the surface. So what all happened to me, how do I explain it ?  Was it because of this stone ? Surprising enough, but there is no alternative explanation for the same. Is it like the movie “Limitless” ? Or did I get some super powers ? Naah, you got to be bitten by some radioactive spider to get super powers. It can not happen just like that.

I didn’t get any super natural psychic power which could let me read minds or teleport myself to where I want. Neither I got any extraordinary vision. Only thing is, every thing became crystal clear in my mind. All information and knowledge that I have gained in my entire life is easily accessible.

I guess, there must have been several such pieces which fell on earth yesterday. Did any of you guys found it ? How is that working for you.

I’ll keep posting how it is working for. Meanwhile, I am thinking of giving it a name ? Any ideas ?

ख्वाबों के कभी पंख ना थे 
वो तो नर्म हवा का झोंका था...

विचारों की श्रंखला से निकले,
वो तो कुछ विचार थे,
सत्य का रूप मान बैठा तु उन्हें बटुक
वो कुछ और नहीं
एक नर्म हवा ​का झोंका था..

उडान भरने तु चला
कल्पना के विमान पर
तु नियंत्रक नहीं, नियंत्रित था
वो तो आत्मविश्वाष के ऐनक का
एक सहज ही धोखा था...

विचार निरंतर आते हैं, विचार निरंतर आयेंगे
बिंब से अपने परिचित रह
प्रतिबिंब के लावण्य पर मोहित ना हो
इंद्रजाल था ये तेरे चि​त का
जिसको तूने ना रोका था

Bada Aadmi is a popular slang in India for successful person. Every parents want their children to be a “Bada Aadmi”. When children get good grades in school or win some trophy, neighbours and family members start speculating “Ye bada aadmi banega” ( He is going to be a really successful ). In India, for us success if not a luxury, it is often mandatory. Its the way of life. Its what we live for.

When asked in school “What do you want be in your life ?” The common answer is “Astraunat, Prime Minister etc etc” They hardly say “Painter or Artist” We have a peculiar image of what we call “Bada Aadmi”, based on many socio-economic parameters.

Very few of them actually get good grades and get into good academic institute because that only can enlighten your path to become a “Bada Aadmi”. However, this preaching since early childhood leaves us in a great dillema in our mid 20’s. That’s the time when we had taken a step into adulthood by becoming a “Aadmi” and stilll struggling in our life to add that adjective “Bada”. The belief of becoming a “Bada Aadmi” has deeepened in our thoughts that often lead to daydreaming. Although no body has done survey on the same, but I am sure the largest number of victims of bipolar disorder can be found in India.

Many of these people do not accept this very fact in public, but deep down they believe that they are going to do something big in their life.

I am not sure if Newton, JK Rowling, Barack Obama or Steve Jobs ever thought like this in their mid 20’s, but I guess they always had this intution. Living with this thought is sometime amazing, it gives you a great propulsion. However, when things doesn’t turn around according to your dream, it leaves us deep negative impact hampering self-confidence, self-reliance as well.

So what’s the agenda here,

Well, I am trying to figure our a recipe for success. Sounds crazy? Huh ?

All my life I heard they saying “There is no shortcut for success”. “Hard work, dedication, passion etc are the keys to success” Well, First of all, I am not trying to find any shourtcut for success. I am trying to figure out if there is any methodology for success. If any such methodology exists, is there any way to predict that based on the set of controllable parameters. So here is my hypothesis.

Suppose, if we get “all possible data” in the world. Data of all events in the history of the world, complete log of human behaviour, complete understanding of human mind, a complete understanding of every tiny thing in the world. And now, we have a super-duper computer to analyze that data. We identify all points which we define as success. All preceding events, human psychology, human behaviour, everything. We identify those patters, and based on the analysis of these patterns, we are able to generate a formula of success. The only logical question asked should be, if it is actually theoritically possible to derive some generic formula for “success” based on these patterns. If answer to this particular problem is yes, than here we are, we have cracked the formula for success.

It looks life Sci-Fi movie trailer, but if you look deeply into this hypothesis it has logical consisteny.

So question is, instead of waiting for another thousand year to discover that formula is there any scientic or logical approach which can lead us to “Success Formula”.

I do not hate hardwork. I have worked for days and months when required. Neither I have less respect for passion or dedication. I admire all those people who have reached to their goals by this or probably right now on their way. Just that, I never find myself too much passionate about something. Neither I want to make myself work for many hours.

All I want is “daydreaming” 🙂